Cutting

I have a "tiny" problem with cutting.
I wish all of you ugly people out there could feel what I feel after cutting. The awesome feeling of freedom and peace. Happyness for a while. Satisfaction.
All the pain inside is neutralized by the pain outside.
The moment a blade smoothly cuts skin..Mmmm...The moment blood is all over...Mmm...The process of the "wound" becoming a scar...Mmm
Non cutters, you´ll tell us it´s sick and we need help but you will never know how ALIVE we feel after doing so. After doing sick things to ourselves. After doing things that society dislikes.