Dreams

I won´t talk about dreams in general
I will talk about my dreams
I used to dream one dream for about 6 years on the same day every year. It was about me, my brother, my grandma and her sister (my aunt) walking on a path. I somehow had a bike. Left to the path: a forest, right to the path: a muddy river. The path actually was higher than the river. I tripped and fell with the bike, then landed in the river and drowned. Nobody payed attention to me. They walked away like nothing happened.
I still can NOT swim. I´m totally scared of water where I can move free in. 
When I first had that dream I was about 4 or 5 years old. When it stopped I was 11 and we moved.
Sometimes I´ve had it 5 days a week for a month. Couldn´t sleep. Sometimes I´ve been waiting for it every year. It never appeared again. 


Then it got worse. I´ve been dying in every single of my dreams. Sometimes I fell from a skyscraper, sometimes I got shot, sometimes I killed myself by cutting my veins, shooting myself, setting myself on fire, etc. The scariest dream I´ve had so far was a man all covered in black jumping from a closet behind me and stabbing my back with a huge shiny knife/cutting my throat/ stabbing my heart. I don´t know why I´m so scared of that but it probably is a warning sign for people who will dissapoint me. I have that dream quite often. People dissapoint me quite often.


When I dream of people I know, something bad happens to them. I warn my friends when I dream about them. Even if it´s just their face for a second, something gonna happen.
The worst thing that happened was death. The best was crazy traffic.


I love sleeping in, I love sleeping carefree but mostly it´s impossible.