My mum

"Why don´t you talk to me about your life?"
Mum, I don´t have a life because you take every single tiny piece of it away.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
Yeah, mum, of course, I´m home 24/7 and when I´m out, I´m in school. I of course have a boyfriend who I know from a party I was at a short while ago. Oh wait. This "short while" thingy was 4 years ago when it was the first and the last time I went out to party.
"Who´s this?"
None of your business.
"Why?!? TELL ME ASAP!!"
Fist you fucking shut up. If I would tell you things, you would make up stories that can never be true in anyone´s lifes and then they will all be my fault, the reason won´t even matter.


I hate my parents. First they ask what´s going on, then they make up shit, then they don´t care and say I´m an idiot. Some might say they care much and want to protect me from danger, but I say they fucking care too much and protect me from life.
I´m fucking 17. Never going out. I can count my "friends" with the half of ONE hand.
I remember when age 14 people asked me out every week. Now they don´t even try and the only invitations are the ones coming from the facebook massive add option. If they remember to click on my name. 
It´s always either too late, too dark, too dangerous, too many rapists outside or I´m too young.


I´m soon to be 18. Too young.
I have rights to go out untill midnight. Too late.
I have a light installed on my bike. Too dark.
I have an older brother who I fought with for all my life. Too dangerous.
I´m ugly and fat, who the fuck wants to rape me? Too many rapists.


CLEAN YOUR FUCKING BRAINS AND DELETE ALL OF THE INFORMATION.


Because I don´t go out, I don´t even fucking know how to talk to people and this is why I push them away, because if they will ask me out to party, the only thing I can tell them is "I´m not allowed to go". Everyone around doesn´t know me, the ones who do, think I´m retarded and unsocial. I`D LOVE to talk to all of you out there, but I´m in prison for all my life!!